Me and my loaner (car)

I know I may sound too upbeat about my most recent mess up, but for some reason, it doesn't bother me as much as it should. Maybe because I didn’t give them the money forfeiting the intention of getting it back (like I normally do). But anyway, yes, I screwed up and I’m working my way up… again.

A few of you had some questions, so let me try to address them quickly:

- The Honda car was supposed to be for me, so I could return the loaner car and have a more reliable ride. Then my parents attempted to hide the car from me since my younger sister also wanted the car. I wouldn’t have minded either way.

- The Honda then was supposed to be for my younger sister and I made the mistake of offering to pay for a (large) portion of it so she could take it. My sister would repay me back.

- The Honda car didn’t sell, so my parents took my money and bought a Saturn which needs transmission work. I wasn’t involved in the decision and didn’t learn about it until much after the fact.

- Furthermore, the Saturn is now my parents’, since it’s an SUV type car. My younger sister will probably inherit the other small car of the house (not my loaner). This means I wont be getting paid for it. 

- I could claim the Saturn as my own, since it was my money, but it just doesn’t feel right to do so. Two wrongs don’t make a right.

However, a few of you including Rafiki brought up a very good point:

With this new vehicle, once it is fixed, does that mean my loaner remains a loaner? Or can I claim it for my own, fully and rightfully?

I thought about this, and I realized I don’t like the loaner. I never have. When my car died, which was a car I truly liked, I had to take the loaner. And I hate it. It’s too long and wide and hard to park. It does takes me from point A to point B, but it is lousy. But you know what? It isn’t about me liking it. It is about having a reliable car. So whether I like this car or not, I have decided it is mine. It is no longer a loaner, and though nothing has changed/has to change except my mentality, it makes me feel a bit better to know I have a car that is mine. I may not like it, but hey, can’t win all. It's probably not worth anything as a trade in and it is likely it will get damaged/die in the next 3 or so years, and it already needs new brakes. It needs a VERY thorough cleaning inside and out. But it's my car. Welcome to my family, junkie ex-loaner!